{"product_id":"straight-to-hell-memoir-of-an-ex-evangelical-pastor-paperback","title":"Straight to Hell: Memoir of an Ex-Evangelical Pastor - Paperback","description":"\u003cdiv\u003e\u003cp style=\"text-align: right;\"\u003e\u003ca href=\"https:\/\/reportcopyrightinfringement.com\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"nofollow\"\u003e\u003cb\u003eReport copyright infringement\u003c\/b\u003e\u003c\/a\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003c\/div\u003e\u003cp\u003eby \u003cb\u003eJohn Wesley Wilson\u003c\/b\u003e (Author)\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003cstrong\u003e★ GOLD MEDAL WINNER - 2026 Illumination Book Awards\u003c\/strong\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003cstrong\u003e\"Wilson does not clean himself up for the audience. The writing has the kind of honesty most memoirs sidestep.\" - \u003cem\u003eAsher Syed, Readers' Favorite\u003c\/em\u003e ★★★★★\u003c\/strong\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003cstrong\u003e\"Wilson does not attack faith. He wrestles with it. Honestly. Painfully. And at great personal cost. He writes with candor, insight, and emotion-and without a shred of self-pity.\" - \u003cem\u003eElizabeth Ridley, Coauthor of The Dirt Beneath Our Door (Matt Holt Books, 2025)\u003c\/em\u003e\u003c\/strong\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003cstrong\u003eWhat happens when you abandon yourself to stay loved?\u003c\/strong\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eBarefoot in the backwoods of South Alabama, John grew up amid poverty, violence, fear, and a family constantly coming apart.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eThe small Pentecostal church at the edge of a cotton field offered safety, certainty, and a place to belong.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eBut belonging came with conditions.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eTo be loved, he learned to perform.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eTo be accepted, he learned to hide.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eDeep inside, he carried a truth he believed made him unworthy of both-one his faith couldn't accept and he couldn't change.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eSo he became the person everyone needed him to be.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eA husband.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eA father.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eA pastor.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eFor years, he devoted himself to doing everything right, believing that obedience and sacrifice would finally make him worthy.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eWhen the truth finally surfaced, it threatened everything he had sacrificed himself to protect. Most of all, it threatened the relationship with the two daughters he was determined not to lose.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eWhat followed was a long journey through grief and exile toward something he had never known before: the freedom to be fully seen and still be loved.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eStraight to Hell is an award-winning memoir about faith, family, sexuality, shame, and the long road home after a lifetime of hiding.\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eAt its heart, the book asks two questions: \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003cstrong\u003eWho did I have to become to stay loved?\u003c\/strong\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003cstrong\u003eWhat would happen if I finally came home to myself?\u003c\/strong\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003e*Includes book club questions and discussion guide.\u003c\/p\u003e\n            \u003cdiv\u003e\n\u003cstrong\u003eNumber of Pages:\u003c\/strong\u003e 320\u003c\/div\u003e\n            \u003cdiv\u003e\n\u003cstrong\u003eDimensions:\u003c\/strong\u003e 0.72 x 9 x 6 IN\u003c\/div\u003e\n            \u003cdiv\u003e\n\u003cstrong\u003ePublication Date:\u003c\/strong\u003e June 29, 2025\u003c\/div\u003e\n            ","brand":"BooksCloud","offers":[{"title":"Default Title","offer_id":42542074789968,"sku":"9798999389312","price":27.5,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":true}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0592\/9540\/0016\/files\/BZHzTdUUdj9798999389312.webp?v=1781698383","url":"https:\/\/palm-malen-gift-shop-pmrc.myshopify.com\/products\/straight-to-hell-memoir-of-an-ex-evangelical-pastor-paperback","provider":"Palm Malen Gift Shop -PMRC","version":"1.0","type":"link"}